"We are all wanderers on this earth...our hearts are full of wonder, and our souls are deep with dreams." ~ Gypsy proverb

Friday, August 31, 2012

Awake My Soul


It is days like these that I wonder where to begin...when so much has passed that to compress them into a little box and present them with ribbons seems an earnest yet still insufficient way to share. I have missed this space, but my days have been full, offering me enchanting views inside and out, views that keep me spellbound with the life that is mine

I am still not immune to the questions of relevance beyond mother or wife, and these hauntings are with  me wherever I go lately. I suppose I am not ready for the answers right now as they remain elusive and mysterious at best. Glimpses of opportunities that may lie ahead swirl around me like the aroma of fresh baked bread--inviting, warm, and bursting with unmistakable anticipation. The future is as bright as it is unsure, yet time has it's own rhythm that is untouchable to us all. This I do respect, despite the wanting of my human nature.

Meanwhile, inspiration is ripe for the picking because for this, there are no limitations...

This past Monday, I visited a local university and met with a graduate counselor for this school...funny thing is, all the reasons that I went to college over 20 years ago are nowhere near the same. And I recognize that this is a good thing. This time, I would go for the sheer joy and challenge of averting my eyes towards doors that I have been too afraid to open on my own. I would go back for the complete pleasure of being around other lovers of the written and read word. I would go to starve the vultures of self-criticism, and throw myself instead to the eagles of constructive criticism. I would do it all for personal growth, experience, and for the chance to come face to face with fear over and over again. But for now, timing and circumstance are still driving opportunity, so I will wait...at least until the signs are clearer, and until the ones I love are further upward on their own road....

This concert was a couple nights ago...sincerely one of the best concerts of my life. I am still soaring from this evening...




I Will Wait by Mumford & Sons on Grooveshark


video

And a wonderful weekend to you all....

xoxo

ps. play the song and the video at the same time and you will get a glimpse of our absolute joy :).

11 comments:

  1. i wish you fearlessness, or if fear, then fear that holds up a mirror and shows you all light and all darkness. imagine boldly walking into every day in this way!

    xo
    erin

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  2. I can only imagine how amazing M&S must've been at Red Rocks.
    I knew before even opening the link that Naropa would be the sweet gem inside. So hard to make these choices as we get older, but it seems that your process is aligned in all the right ways and the answer will come when the time is right. Wishing you clarity, friend.

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  3. Naropa .... if I were 20 years younger!!!!! Hugs -----

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  4. i will listen tomorrow, everyone is asleep now :)

    you will know when the time is there, and it may not appear as neatly as you think is 'proper'. ;)

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  5. Oh MJ! My hubby and I SO wanted to go to Muford & Sons! You are so lucky. They had so few dates and the tickets near us sold out in 15 mins. It must have been amazing! I am so happy to hear you speak about going back to school for more written inspiration. I love reading your words, your cadence is just beautiful. xx

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  6. oooooh, Mumford & Sons must have been awesome! That is really cool. Live music feeds the soul doesn't it?
    I'm excited for your unfolding journey; sometimes the signs are so hard to read and other times, they're clear as day; this is what makes life exciting right?

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  7. Good catching up with you as usual...big fan of Mumford & Sons and even bigger fan of looking with part enthusiasm part interpretation at the future.
    Cheers,
    Leah

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  8. Oh, how I knew that link was going to go to Naropa!! :)

    I feel excited for you...

    Yours on the path,
    Stacy

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  9. "for the chance to come face to face with fear over and over again" - I like that. I'm trying to push myself in that direction too. it's a bumpy road. with the safe and the known persistently calling me back....

    good luck with whatever you decide to do, whenever you decide to do it. sometimes patience is the key!

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  10. Oh, the concert seems incredible! What a fun way for you to share it with us!

    And Naropa...could be so good MJ, so so good.

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  11. your life has been ripe and full of goodness since you began this big adventure. so happy for you!

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