It's just been that kind of weekend, summer in fact. Flying with the slight of whim, scheduling and canceling plans at the last minute, some hours just lazing by with a little bit of reading, a little bit of crafting, a little bit of banjo, and a whole lotta polaroids. Friendship was a theme this weekend, and I clung to the laughter, the conversations, the sharing of food and drink. And with every single beat, I'm watching my kids change, my husband change, the season's change, my life moving as quickly as the hummingbird's wings. I linger, I hover, all the while praying that somehow, somewhere, my memories are storing what my film cannot.
The blog world feels like it's changing (or is it me)? From the wanderings I make, and even from my own time or lack there of that I spend in these spaces, something is different. I visit old friends and still peek at new ones, but I sense we are shifting, some moving on, some transforming into something new. Me? I'm just hanging on to the day to day. Not the kind of cliffhanger hanging on, where I feel like I'm going to fall at any minute, but the "enjoying the view" kind of hanging on. The kind where I just want to remember why I am even here in this space. To wonder and question, remember, and honor the life I've been given, and to navigate and discover the inner marriage between the 2 parts of me: the human and the soul.
I guess that is why I write what I write. The longer I am out here, the more I see how much we all have so much in common, how we have battled similar battles, questioned similar questions, struggled similar struggles. In the end, we all just want to remember why we are here, to notice the things we don't want to miss, and to record the things that make us beautiful and resilient, no matter how fast our days move, just like the hummingbird's wings.
Monday love...
xoxo
joining Amanda
Loving every word, feeling connected through similar thoughts, and emotions....x
ReplyDeleteoh yes, I feel it very much.
ReplyDeleteso much has changed out there since you and I met in the blog world. everything seemed so.... sweet and innocent then. now it feels like too much space, too much busy-ness (to me.)
Because of my business, I do hang on- find other ways of connecting, instagram, etc.... hoping that the shift tjay I feel lately in the blog world will resolve itself back to where it was once for me, and knowing that it's all just moving so fast, people grow and change.
I keep on.
I miss you.
oh yes. i've had this same convo with several blog friends and even the mister - i'm not sure if it's just summer or if there is a real shift underfoot but things are indeed different.
ReplyDeletei'm glad you're still here, hanging on. i'm always happy to land in a comfy place :)
astro-wise, i see huge paradigm shifts. and summer is always a transitional time too. we slow down, and in slowing down we see spots needing or wanting change.
ReplyDeletethere are three certainties, taxes, death, and change. ;)
x
Beautiful, MJ. I too feel the shifts, as I have been silent. I am not sure what to share, as things are progressing in slow, but equally fast ways. At times I feel like I share too much and then others when I share too little. Ah, life :). I like the vision of summer undulating like hummingbird wings. Things are happening and whatever shift occurs it is all for the better. xoxo
ReplyDeleteoh this is so beautiful. i haven't been on here in so long. for me there has been so much change and upheaval in the past year that my blogging has changed. i am feeling a need to come back though for the many reasons you just shared. i too have been and always will be on a spiritual journey and i think most of us bloggers are. through pictures and words i think we can be still and see things more clearly for what they are. my photographs always help me to be present in these fleeting moments throughout our days. your little maya is growing so fast - so are mine. i love this picture and what you wrote today. so glad i came on the computer this evening. hugs to you.
ReplyDeleteSo nice to see you Anushka! Hugs right back to you!
DeleteOh my. I have missed your words. This was complete nourishment for me. Thank you. XO
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ReplyDeleteyou are beautiful and o so wise
love and light