52 photo projects today, with the theme "silhouettes".
I realize that August is coming to a close in a week, and with it the August break, and even the Index Card a Day challenge (which I've been neglecting a bit). In the last couple weeks, I seemed to have taken a break from nearly everything--the knitting, the journaling, the icads, even photos have become sparse (only the reading hasn't suffered--that never seems to suffer ;). There's been a lot of thinking though, and a lot of angst.
I know all the right words and principles about living in the moment, keeping awareness and having gratitude for what I have. I've learned enough about those things to know in my head and heart what's important. But sometimes the knowing just isn't enough. Sometimes the feelings still sit, simmering in that distant corner of my mind. Sometimes it hurts to know exactly what I want and not be able to reach it quite yet. And when I slow down, those distant feelings bulldoze to the forefront saying "remember me?"
My last post with Desiderata was a reminder to myself about what to do with those feelings. My father loved that poem, yet he died with so much sadness. I guess that is maybe why I have been so militant about defining my own feelings, analyzing them, finding the reasons and trying to fix them. What slowing down does though, is it allows me to just sit with them, shake hands maybe, and make peace. It allows me to say "I know you are there and I know you have something to say." And that's it.
"Whether or not it is clear to you, the universe is unfolding as it should..." ~ from Desiderata