"We are all wanderers on this earth...our hearts are full of wonder, and our souls are deep with dreams." ~ Gypsy proverb

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

nirvana



A weight is tied to the tongue of my thoughts lately. A strange feeling, one that use to terrify me actually. Where I am all emotion and no words surface to explain it away to make it manageable. It has taken me years but I understand now.

This space is a place where I am suppose to do nothing but feel.

Natural.
Necessary.
Urgent.

It means there are emotions here that have gathered like stars, stars that have become attracted to and spin around each other. They swarm in the space where all souls begin, in the chest, near the heart, and above the pit of our stomachs. Where breath begins and ends, where the beating of our heart commands everything else. A space a million miles away from our heads.

Once they gather, an energy emerges that vibrates outward, traveling from that soul space, trickling through the organs, across blood vessels and nerves, and finally leaping through my skin, radiating out the tiny hairs like sparks from a sparkler, gathering speed, gathering momentum....

And suddenly, I am alight.
I am without thought,
and my limbs have an indomitable urge to move,
to dance, to spin, to stomp, to jump.

There is no need to fight it, no reason to resist.
With my underbelly exposed, I extend my arms, close my eyes,
and I flow...

I am the stars, I am the light
I am the emotion,
and I feel everything without judgement or thought

in this space, in this beautiful space where no words exist, where my body moves to
express what I am...

this, for me, is nirvana...

Glósóli by Sigur Rós on Grooveshark

xoxo

12 comments:

  1. ditto the above comment.
    you are true journeyer....you are bound to find a lot by being so.
    XO

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  2. That. Is. It. You have expressed it so beautifully. Hugs back to you MJ! xoxo

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  3. I am so glad you found your nirvana MJ, it's a place we should all have!

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  4. I've always loved the physical expression of feeling...through movement, dance, walking, meditation. Each movement -- different as it is -- can be an important show of and meaning-making of ourselves!

    Love this MJ!

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  5. so beautiful MJ
    just what I needed today
    truly
    all of it
    the words
    the music
    the image
    I am preparing for my last workshop and I want it to be an offering to the woman who are coming...letting go of much of the old format...breaking free and trusting
    this place has helped me still my mind
    thank you

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  6. in this place there is no need for control, is there? it is freedom)))

    xo
    erin

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  7. Lovely, lovely, LOVELY, MJ.

    I wish I could hear the music you have shared here—do you know I've found so many lovely musicians through your blog? But I can't seem to hear your grooveshank links. I would be so grateful to know which song comes with these glorious words.

    I think music does to you what it does to me. It is a soul thing. Isn't it?

    Thank you, MJ, for this.

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  8. Oh...my. very. favorite. I have Jonsi on in my studio right now as I type this. This is glorious and the freedom in the release. Deep breath. Open arms. Your words. Thank you. XO

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