Wednesday, December 7, 2011
I believe, that what we really are is a soul without labels, without humanly definitions, awards or shame to carry on its back. We are souls that are meant to walk through fire and through rainbows of human experiences, only to be primed and polished into a brighter, shinier version of our conscious selves. Our souls carry no memory of the past, and no desire for the future, but blossoms in the present moment as it occurs, one moment after another. Can we exist this way? Is it possible? I believe my soul's journey is about coming face to face with Ego and getting to know her well, very well. And by knowing Ego well, it is the only way I can overcome her sly tricks, recognize her vicious words, her relentless needs, temptations, stress and torments that come into play every day. Ego is a growing amoeba highly dependent on our needs to think about self. The more we spend time *thinking* of self, the greater the Ego's appetite becomes. The more we lose ourselves into the human feelings called selfishness, hate, anger, shame, arrogance, self-pity, judgement, narcissism, sadness, anxiety, guilt, and fear...the less we truly know ourselves without prejudice.
Our potential as humans is enormous, but not by what we do, what we can become, or what we've invented or created. It is by our capacity to love, enjoy and be enthusiastic about what is happening at this very moment. My own inquest had to do with recognizing an inner conflict between what I am exactly right now, and who I wish I could be or what I wish I could be doing. There is only one result to this conflict, constant suffering and agony. Once I remember and realize that my potential for happiness exists in this every moment, then there will be no need for Ego, no need for stress. To bring enthusiasm, alertness, consciousness, and pure freedom of spirit to our children, to our families, to our friends, at any given moment, I believe, is our true purpose. From there, joy and creativity can be born without us ever having to work for it.
Much love to you my friends...